After all these years, I'm probably just gonna stick with AVM, since the various Malformations are so similar and my medical bracelet says AVM. And also...if one doctor says "VM" and another doctor says "CM", what's to stop my next doctor from calling it a..."QM"?! I am of the persuasion that I have a malformation so unique that no one can agree on what it's called. Maybe they'll keep studying me and name this new malformation I apparently have a JM!
I am totally supportive of anyone who wants to wear a mask in this pandemic we're apparently still in the middle of. More power to you, if it makes you feel like you're doing your part. You know, who am I to say you shouldn't wear a mask? (Unless I'm talking to you, then I'm probably having a hard time understanding you because reading lips actually helps my aphasia not be so bad, so I'd prefer you not to wear a mask when I'm talking to you. But I'm not going to demand you take it off or else.)
I tried to do my part. If it had just been asthma attacks, then I would comply with wearing a mask (under my nose so I wouldn't have asthma attacks. But I would comply!). But it wasn't just that. That weekend is what started the increase in my headaches, nerve pain, neuro fatigue, side going numb (I'm still having a hard time accepting these may be seizures), spazzy hand, turned ankle, sensitivity to light and cold, anxiety, etc etc etc. I know these symptoms weren't the result of my asthma, because in the past 15 years, I've had quite a few asthma attacks, and the only symptom I've ever gotten after was temporary sleepiness.
So anyway, I feel like that's enough negativity for today. Please pray with me that my EEG appointment can happen soon. Pray God turns their hearts to me (and everyone else struggling to survive with a mask on). This neurologist and his NP were SOOO amazing on Monday! It was such an encouragement to felt seen and heard. I know Satan is mad that appointment went so well and God used it so clearly to bolster my spirits. I know Satan can't do anything to me that God won't allow...I just don't really wanna be a Job today!
"My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion forever." Ps 73:26